A Letter of confession

Dear Catherine,

I am sorry, I haven't talked to you in so long. I feel like I have been lost. No bearings, no compass, I kept crashing into things. A little crazy I guess... I have never been lost before. You were my true north. I could always stare for home when you were my home...

Forgive me for being so angry when you left. I still think some mistakes have been made and I am waiting for god to take it back, but I am doing better now. The work helps me, most of all you helped me...

You came into my dream last night with that smile of yours that always helped me like a lover, walked me like a child. All I remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that feeling and try to keep it as long as I could. I am writing to tell you that I am on a Journey toward that peace, and to tell you that I am sorry about so many things...

I am sorry, I didn't take better care of you so that you never spent one minute of being cold or scared or sick. I am sorry, I didn't try harder to find the words to tell you what I was feeling... I am sorry, I never fixed the screen door....

I fixed it now. I am sorry, I ever fought with you. I am sorry, I didn't apologise more... I was too proud. I am sorry, I didn't bring you more compliments and everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair. I am sorry, I didn't hold on to the strength that god couldn't pull you away.............

With Love....